Jason Mraz - Life Is Wonderful
This song have different meaning to each part of my life. From hate to love. And how i accept myself after listening to this song.
Through the long days. Through the hard nights. It's life. This song makes me love the simple things in life. Everything we do in life goes in circles. Life in general is gift. It works magically and mysteriously. Sometimes, it gives me curiosity. Life is all about twist and turns. This song reminds me when i was 16. Having my N levels and having a bad relationship with my girlfriend (ex). I didnt know why life suddenly turn soo hard, pushing me to the ground. Like im a sinner suffering in hell. I cant cope studying. I was a top student for 3 years in my secondary life as im in Normal Technical stream. Its easy for me for the past few years until i had a gf. Everything changed. I have to manage my time well, make things balance. But eventually, i failed to do so. I was having depression since then. Feels like theres no one around to give me a hand.
From that day, i start sleeping in class, saying vulgars, misbehaving, like how i used to be when i was younger, in my primary school days. Skipping school while leaving my bag in class and such. Things changed. Since the day, I try to avoid myself from meeting my girlfriend. I successfully did that and manage to cope back with my studies. But then, sooner i've found out that she's in a relationship with another guy. That broke my heart totally. I trusted her soo much, yet, she did that to me. All i did was cry on that spot i was standing, looking at her smiling widely with that guy. Since then, i start hating my life.
Few weeks before N levels, i was called by the councilor. I didnt want to seek them for help at first. But I decided to give it a try. So i went and speak out all whats on my mind. I felt relieved. Suddenly i feel like theres someone is really there for me, listening to every detail, trying to help. And thats when the councilor said
"Life is wonderful. Things may change for the worst, but the good will always comes later."
I really keep those words of the councilor and she asked me to listen to this song, Life is wonderful by Jason Mraz. And so, when i got home, i listen to it while reading out the lyrics. It brought me to tears. I didnt know life can be as wonderful like the rainbow in the sky. Colourful and shine. Then i start talking about my problems to my mum. She is soo concerned about me, she bring me to east coast by the beach, listening to the waves, my mom starts comforting me. Saying
" You've always been a good son of me. Why did you change? I'd love to see you bright and shine in future, with suit and tie, smart and successful. Dont just do it for yourself. You do it for me too. Because i love you more than any girls out there i promise you. Son,will you do this favour for me? Will you?"
It brought me to tears again. Ive realised now that im not alone in this world. All this while, i always have my family being there for me,holding my back incase i fall. I start putting myself again, and prepare for my N levels. The results weren't as bad as what i thought! Top 10 in class, well, at least. And till now, i see myself as a successful person. Without these people i love, i wont be here to where i am now. They're my life savior. And im stronger than before.