I was playing soccer with Hakim and my other classmates. Well, me and Hakim are close friends and people even calls us gay partners as we live just opposite blocks and would wait for one another at the void deck to go school together. He's a nerdy with bowled haircut, quiet and petite guy. I got close with him due to the fact that everyone always looks down and bullies him and he's always alone. One time during P.E lesson, we played floorball but before the game start, the two captains will pick his group members. Everyone was chosen and left with Hakim, which unfortunately the other group have to take but was being looked down by one of his worst nightmare friend, Danny. He shouted
" walao! this guy again? cannot make it la sia. You dont need to play for us la! Lousy bugger. "
I looked up at Hakim seeing him in misery, dragging his feet to prepare for the game. I feel bad not standing up for him, but i couldnt do much even. The game starts and i played fairly well scoring some goals until i look around looking for Hakim. He isnt around at the court but with me having fun, i ignored him.
After P.E , we headed straight to class , sweaty and tired when i saw Hakim sitting on his place reading a book. I asked him
"Hey, why didnt you play? we had fun! "
He just nods and smile. I bought him his favourite Bandung drink to cheer him up. But didnt work. Few days later, i realised that he had been avoiding me, and when i asked him to go school together, he rejected. I sense something isnt right now. Another P.E lesson, this time we played soccer. I knew he will be playing regardless of which team he's in as soccer is is hobby since pri school. He was the opposite team and we played awhile. He played well even thought Danny keeps interrupting his mind talking shits about him. Until a moment of second when i turn around, i saw Danny raising his feet high up reaching for the ball when Hakim is just infront of him. Slams Hakim with his forceful kick to his face. I didnt know if it was on purpose or accidental. I ran towards him and saw his eyes bleeding, flowing like a river, with him crying out in pain. Tears roll down my cheeks and i asked him
" are you alright?! dont open your eyes! Stay strong! dont cry!"
He was then hospitalized for a few weeks until we can see him. Bad news that, he was visually impaired ever since the incident. He asked me
"will you still be my friend when im like this fi? i cant see you. I cant see the world. I feel like ending my life now fi. Im sorry. "
Hearing that, i shouted
" what the **** are you talking about man! you're still young! come on man. i will help you through your life. We're friends remember? "
and i left him speaking no goodbye. He then was released from hospital, but didnt attend school as my school doesnt take visually impaired students. I feel sorry for him and visits him once awhile. One day, while i was in his house,he starts behaving strangely, he slits his wrist, and attempts suicide when i quickly grab his body down. I beat him while crying. Shouting
" are you crazy bro?! are you?! **** you! what the hell are you trying to do?! treasure your life will you?! just, **** you. Thanks for making me feel like a dumb shit friend who cares for you when you just want to end it like this?! Think bro! "
Few weeks later, i received a phone call from him, saying thanks to me for holding him back when he was committing suicide as now he is studying in a school for visual impaired and had a part time job to earn himself too. I feel great for him and wish him luck for all his life.
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